Frustrated

William and I are both frustrated with not being able to communicate effectively with one another. He knows what he wants; he points, he grunts, he cries and he throws things. But I can not always figure out what it is that he wants because he is unable to tell me. He gets really frustrated because I am not giving him what it is that he wants and in turn starts crying, which in turn makes me start crying. It is a horrible feeling to not know what is wrong with your child.

With all new babies this is a problem but within a short amount of time Mommies and Daddies begin to figure out the different cries that a child has. We are way beyond that point. We did figure out the basic stuff like; I am wet, I want cow, I want my bottle or I want to be held. But now we are at a point of endless possibilities; I want this toy, no that one, I want puffs not Cheerios, I don't want to do therapy today, leave me alone, please hold me, etc, etc.

It is heart braking. It is exhausting. It is frustrating.

I have such an overwhelming feeling of helplessness right now.

I spend most of my day trying to figure out what Will wants. He cries and I carry him around and give him things that I think he might want, to which he just throws it on the floor. Sometimes I just have to sit him on the floor and walk away from him because I don't know what else to do.

I am dealing with both ends of the spectrum. I have one child whose mouth does not stop from the time she opens her eyes in the morning to the time she closes them at night. Then I have one that can't say a single word but really, really wants to.